Hopeful

I started this blog because my best lymie friend Nicole told me it helps so much just to express herself so I thought I would try it out. Also I can keep people updated on how I'm doing.
The past week has not been a good one. I have been more than usual tired. When I wake up I feel like I just ran a marathon. Some nights I can only get 1-3 hours of sleep and the pain makes it impossible to sleep anymore, and some nights I can sleep 12 hours and feel like I hadn't slept at all and that I could just sleep all day. But I cant live my life in bed everyday.
There is over 70 horrid symptoms I have from lymes disease. It would be SO much easier to live with all the symptoms if i could just get rid of the one most horrible one which is the burning/horrible aching/etc pain all over that makes it so I cant even move if I dont take my pain medicine...But that just takes the edge off so I can push through. Its so hard push through this.
I can laugh and smile and be happy but inside I am in soo much misery. I wish people understood but they wouldnt get it unless they got lymes disease and I dont want them to because it really really hurts. This lyme quote is so true: "You dont get it..Unless you get it. But I hope you don't."
It is so hard to stay positive. I have been so much more positive since I met Nicole who is my age and has lymes disease. She helps so much just to talk to her because she knows exactly what I feel like. We love the same stuff and everything. She is SO much more positive than me. YOUR MY HERO NICOLE!!!!